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Psalm 3:3

Wednesdays In The Word, Faith, MiscarriageJessica ScheksComment

Since I often talk about the importance of getting into the Word, I started a series where I share one scripture or passage of scripture each Wednesday and talk about why it has meant so much to me. I hope it encourages you to get into the Word and to use these scriptures as starting points perhaps, but to also find meaningful things in the Bible on your own as well.

Ever since my first miscarriage I feel like I've been on a roller coaster; highs and lows that I feel are out of my control. But I've noticed there is one thing that keeps me stable, and that is God's Word. Hebrews 4:12 says that it is ALIVE, meaning that we can interact and engage with it! When you open His Word with an open mind, He will fill it as you read and you will walk away feeling encouraged, challenged, peaceful, and joyful no matter your earthly circumstances!

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But you, O LORD, are a shield about me,
my glory, and the lifter of my head.

| PSALM 3:3 |

This verse became special to me after our second miscarriage. As I've mentioned before, right around the time we found out our daughter's heart had stopped beating, I had been planning to "love" a Bible and send it to my sister who was in a religion class for the semester. I had a little ESV Bible that I had already been underlining and highlighting and handlettering in quite a bit, so I decided to add some more decoration and notes to it before sending it to her. But then our daughter died and I had surgery and suddenly it was a few weeks into the semester and I considered giving up on the idea.

I was reminded that this may be one of the few times I could send a Bible to my sister without it being awkward, so just a few days after surgery I began to work on her Bible. I worked on it tirelessly for several days straight. I looked up the 100 most popular scriptures, I searched each book of the Bible on Pinterest to see what the "popular" Pinterest scriptures were, I wrote in tons of notes, and highlighted and handlettered like there was no tomorrow.

Usually after a miscarriage and surgery I'd be sticking to gentle, peaceful, and comforting scriptures. But since my sister isn't saved, I was reading salvation scriptures and convicting scriptures, definitely not the ones I tend to lean on in times of heartache and suffering. I'm not sure when I realized it, but I felt joyful as I soaked in God's Word for hours each day. Not even a week had passed since I'd gone into the OR with my sweet baby still inside of me and left without her.

I spent a lot of time in the Psalms as I worked through my sister's Bible and as I read Psalm 3, verse 3 jumped out at me because I could identify with what the psalmist wrote. The Lord was the lifter of my head. I don't think anyone would have blamed me for feeling depressed that week after my surgery, and my heart was deeply broken, but as I immersed myself into His Word and presence, I also experienced such a deep joy.

As I read Psalm 3:3, I knew that He had been lifting my head that week up towards Him. I was tempted to just look down into my own sorrow, but as I sought the Lord, He lifted my head towards Him in a way that is hard to describe. He gave me an eternal perspective that made me long for heaven all the more. I realized how deeply joy and sorrow can coexist and it made me so thankful that I serve a God Who, in the midst of heartbreak, lifts my head just enough at times to keep me from completely going under. He lifts my head towards Him so that I never lose sight of His light. He is my hope, my glory, and the lifter of my head.

A photo of the Bible I made for my sister.

A photo of the Bible I made for my sister.

Don't Forget!

Remember to check out what my friend Anne Marie is doing over at The Loved Bible Project! She wrote this sweet post about Wednesdays In The Word and how we are teaming up! Each week I will continue to post about a scripture that has helped me in my time of loss and Anne Marie is going to make a free printable that you can find in her Resources page! We encourage you to print it out and spend time soaking in God's Word as you decorate it and then include it in your own Bible or start working on a Loved Bible!