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Psalm 145

Wednesdays In The Word, Faith, MiscarriageJessica Scheks2 Comments

Since I often talk about the importance of getting into the Word, I started a series where I share one scripture or passage of scripture each Wednesday (and let's be honest, maybe Thursday or even Friday) and talk about why it has meant so much to me. I hope it encourages you to get into the Word and to use these scriptures as starting points perhaps, but to also find meaningful things in the Bible on your own as well.

Ever since my first miscarriage I feel like I've been on a roller coaster; highs and lows that I feel are out of my control. But I've noticed there is one thing that keeps me stable, and that is God's Word. Hebrews 4:12 says that it is ALIVE, meaning that we can interact and engage with it! When you open His Word with an open mind, He will fill it as you read and you will walk away feeling encouraged, challenged, peaceful, and joyful no matter your earthly circumstances!

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I will extol thee, my God, O king; and I will bless thy name for ever and ever. Every day will I bless thee; and I will praise thy name for ever and ever. Great is the Lord, and greatly to be praised; and his greatness is unsearchable. One generation shall praise thy works to another, and shall declare thy mighty acts. I will speak of the glorious honour of thy majesty, and of thy wondrous works. And men shall speak of the might of thy terrible acts: and I will declare thy greatness. They shall abundantly utter the memory of thy great goodness, and shall sing of thy righteousness. The Lord is gracious, and full of compassion; slow to anger, and of great mercy. The Lord is good to all: and his tender mercies are over all his works. All thy works shall praise thee, O Lord; and thy saints shall bless thee. They shall speak of the glory of thy kingdom, and talk of thy power; To make known to the sons of men his mighty acts, and the glorious majesty of his kingdom. Thy kingdom is an everlasting kingdom, and thy dominion endureth throughout all generations. The Lord upholdeth all that fall, and raiseth up all those that be bowed down. The eyes of all wait upon thee; and thou givest them their meat in due season. Thou openest thine hand, and satisfiest the desire of every living thing. The Lord is righteous in all his ways, and holy in all his works. The Lord is nigh unto all them that call upon him, to all that call upon him in truth. He will fulfil the desire of them that fear him: he also will hear their cry, and will save them. The Lord preserveth all them that love him: but all the wicked will he destroy. My mouth shall speak the praise of the Lord: and let all flesh bless his holy name for ever and ever.

| PSALM 145 |

This entire chapter of scripture brought me so much comfort shortly after my first miscarriage. A few months before my miscarriage, and about a month before I found out I was pregnant, I was visiting my best friend Julie down in Springville, Alabama. I was sitting next to her in church and saw her underlining verse 16. That was a scripture that I'd never really paid attention to. But for some reason it stuck with me.

Within days of my loss that verse was back to the forefront of my mind. I even hand-lettered it in my journal. For whatever reason, the Lord really used it to comfort me. 

I was very nervous to go back to church after our miscarriage. That kind of anxiety is so strange because on one hand I was extremely nervous that a lot of people would come up to me and I would feel like the center of attention, but on the other hand I was even more afraid that no one would acknowledge what had happened and I'd feel alone. Thankfully, our first service back was sweet. I made Michael walk in late with me so I could avoid talking to people before service started and we sat in the back. Just enough people to make me feel seen and loved came up and gave their condolences and I left feeling blessed in a bittersweet way.

At our church we also have a Sunday night service, since I had enjoyed the morning service I wanted to go back for the night service. But towards the beginning of service I really regretted it when the band played a really joyful-sounding song called "I Cannot Count The Many Blessings." That just felt like slap in the face. Of course I had things to be thankful for, but the one thing I had been most thankful for had been ripped away by death only a week prior. I stood there and grieved as everyone else rejoiced.

Just as I was really beginning to regret coming, our band director got up to testify and he read all of Psalm 145. It was like God's way of reminding me that He knew exactly where I was. I can't describe to you how quickly that turned my entire night around. My heart felt peace and joy and hope, and I was reassured that God truly cared about every detail of my life.

I guess God could've used any scripture in this way, but I'm so thankful He used this passage. It will forever hold a special place in my heart.

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Don't Forget!

Remember to check out what my friend Anne Marie is doing over at The Loved Bible Project! She wrote this sweet post about Wednesdays In The Word and how we are teaming up! Each week I will continue to post about a scripture that has helped me in my time of loss and Anne Marie is going to make a free printable that you can find in her Resources page! We encourage you to print it out and spend time soaking in God's Word as you decorate it and then include it in your own Bible or start working on a Loved Bible!