Since I often talk about the importance of getting into the Word, I started a series where I share one scripture or passage of scripture each Wednesday and talk about why it has meant so much to me. I hope it encourages you to get into the Word and to use these scriptures as starting points perhaps, but to also find meaningful things in the Bible on your own as well.
Ever since my first miscarriage I feel like I've been on a roller coaster; highs and lows that I feel are out of my control. But I've noticed there is one thing that keeps me stable, and that is God's Word. Hebrews 4:12 says that it is ALIVE, meaning that we can interact and engage with it! When you open His Word with an open mind, He will fill it as you read and you will walk away feeling encouraged, challenged, peaceful, and joyful no matter your earthly circumstances!
For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.
| ISAIAH 41:13 |
This scripture brought me such a deep comfort during my second pregnancy. We found out on September 1st, 2016 that our sweet little girl no longer had a heartbeat and she was surgically removed from my body the next day.
I was no stranger to the scary side of pregnancy, having lost our firstborn not even a year earlier, so I was constantly on edge throughout that second pregnancy. August 27th, the Saturday before we found out there was no heartbeat, I had been feeling crampy all day. I knew that feeling crampy could mean absolutely nothing at the stage of pregnancy I was in, but I just had a feeling that it wasn't nothing. In fact, I've heard many mothers who have miscarried say they just had a feeling something wasn't right long before their worst fears were confirmed. I guess you could call it a mother's intuition?
Not a day had gone by where I wasn't scared of losing this child, too, and I was sick of being such a drama queen so I held off on voicing my fears all day. But as the evening approached I became more and more nervous so I texted a few friends asking them to pray.
My best friend Melissa texted me a link to a list of scriptures for fighting fear. I read through that list several times, but two scriptures jumped out at me that I clung to for the rest of my pregnancy. Joshua 1:9 and Isaiah 41:13. You can read more about how I clung to Joshua 1:9 here. But that night I fell asleep repeating Isaiah 41:13 over and over in my mind.
Isaiah 41:13 has a beautiful simplicity to it, how had I never noticed it before? It contains a promise that is the answer to every problem I face; God. Will. Help. Me. Whether I'm stuck in a dangerous situation, studying for a test, or grieving the loss of my two babies, He will help me.
I feared everyday of my pregnancy because there was a part of me that didn't believe this scripture. But losing two children early in pregnancy has taught me to only lean on God more because it solidifies His sovereignty in my mind. Pregnancy teaches you early on, and quite constantly, that this sweet little life is in the Lord's hands. I can take my vitamins and cut out caffeine and soft cheese, but when it really comes down to it, I have no control in sustaining the lives I've been blessed to carry.
I just need to hold on to His hand and trust that He will guide me. And when my hand is in His, I have no need to fear, because everywhere He takes me is within His will and I know that He is always on my side and will always help me.
Remember to check out what my friend Anne Marie is doing over at The Loved Bible Project! She wrote this sweet post about Wednesdays In The Word and how we are teaming up! Each week I will continue to post about a scripture that has helped me in my time of loss and Anne Marie is going to make a free printable that you can find in her Resources page! We encourage you to print it out and spend time soaking in God's Word as you decorate it and then include it in your own Bible or start working on a Loved Bible!