Since I often talk about the importance of getting into the Word, I started a series where I share one scripture or passage of scripture each Wednesday and talk about why it has meant so much to me. I hope it encourages you to get into the Word and to use these scriptures as starting points perhaps, but to also find meaningful things in the Bible on your own as well.
Ever since my first miscarriage I feel like I've been on a roller coaster; highs and lows that I feel are out of my control. But I've noticed there is one thing that keeps me stable, and that is God's Word. Hebrews 4:12 says that it is ALIVE, meaning that we can interact and engage with it! When you open His Word with an open mind, He will fill it as you read and you will walk away feeling encouraged, challenged, peaceful, and joyful no matter your earthly circumstances!
"...you whom I have upheld since your birth, and have carried since you were born. Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you."
| I S A I A H 4 6 : 3b - 4 |
I wanted to talk about Isaiah 46:3a-4 today because it has been such a source of comfort and security for me in the last year and two-ish months. Before my first miscarriage I think I had often overlooked this passage because I typically read the King James Version and it doesn't stand out to me in the translation like it does in others (the photo above is ESV and the quote below it is NIV).
Soon after our first loss I ordered and then devoured Angie Smith's book, I Will Carry You. I loved the book so much that after reading I began searching for her on YouTube and on podcasts to hear more of her story. I stumbled across this series from Revive Our Hearts, where Nancy DeMoss Wolgemuth had interviewed Angie Smith. Up until this point, I thought "I will carry you" was only the name of her book, and the name of the song her husband wrote for their daughter they lost, I had no idea it was a direct quote from Scripture!
As soon as I learned it was a verse in the Bible I looked it up and felt like I'd found gold! The idea of the Lord carrying me was so overwhelmingly good I couldn't get over it. And it put to words exactly how I'd been feeling; after my first loss I felt so extremely close to God and Isaiah 46:3-4 told me He felt so close because He was carrying me. It truly felt like a revelation at the time!
I found verse 3 to be very comforting as I wrestled with questions in my mind about the fate of my child. I had never given much thought about children who were miscarried and I was worried that since our child had never been born, would I even ever get to meet her? But I love the way the NLT translates this verse:
"...I have cared for you since you were born. Yes, I carried you before you were born."
| I S A I A H 4 6 : 3b |
The thought that the Lord carried our child before we even knew about her consoled my aching and questioning heart.
I am currently reading The Broken Way by Ann Voskamp and it is thick. The kind of book that you can't just breeze through; I have to be focused and ready to take in the wisdom. Ann is so deep, and I loved this quote from her book:
This is exactly how I've felt in my brokenness. I am so thankful He holds me in the palm of His hand. One of my go-to phrases now when I write in a sympathy card or text someone going through a loss is, "Praying the Lord carries you until you no longer need to be held." I find it comforting because it doesn't put a timeline on grief and brings a precious picture to mind of the Lord carrying you as you grieve.
So thankful for a God that carries us in our most broken moments.